I think my performance in School of Rock went well. I was super nervous on opening night of the show. Everyone was super nice to me. They kept trying to calm me down which I really appreciated. It was really nice of them to do and I’m lucky they did because I was on the verge of hyperventilating! During the show on opening night, I felt really energized! It made me really happy to prove to myself that all that hard work of memorizing lines, songs, and drum music really paid off. I had one mishap during the opening night performance which was when I didn’t go fast enough to the “If Only You Would Listen” scene. Everything worked out in the end though because Nate and I were ready to race out of the door! I loved the scene with me and Nate. It was fun acting with him because I feel like we really feed off each other energy and emotion. At the end of the opening night performance, I had my big drum solo. It went pretty well so I was happy. The second night went pretty well. The energy was still high and everyone new their lines. I think there was a bit more improve but I enjoyed it! I felt excited throughout the whole show! My big solo at the end of the show did not go as I planned, but I didn’t stop during it which I think paid off. I kind of wish that I didn’t ask so many people if I messed up because everyone I asked said that I did a great job and the majority didn’t even notice. That’s one of the lessons I learned during this SOR experience. Majority of the time, people don't even know what anything is supposed to sound like. I really enjoyed my second performance though because I still felt like I did a great job with all in all performing. Today was the last performance of SOR and I’m kind of bummed it’s over. I felt as if this performance was very free- feeling. Everyone seemed laid back and happy and not tense at all. I really loved that because it made this last performance to be left off on a great note! I did my solo perfectly also! I’m really proud of everyone and also really proud of myself. I’m so happy I did the musical this school year because it pushed me out of my comfort zone. I played the drums and got so much better at them! I sang in front of a crowd! I acted and spoke louder! I had more personality! It felt so nice when people would come up to me at the end of the performances and give me hugs and high fives! They told me I was really great! At the last performance today. Tis man and women gave me firm handshakes. Those were two of my favorite encounters with the people from the crowd. Everyone in theatre were so nice to me I feel like I am apart of something more now. I feel super happy and and smiling as I write this right now because I just love every single one of the people in the production of SOR! I miss the musical sooooooo much already. :( :).

Don’t criticize me
Hey we all wish for something different right? I’m wishing for this! Don’t make me repeat myself I’ve told you what I’ve wished for so many times and I Still don't think you get what I’m saying. If my wish came true, Id have it all. You think I like where I am right now? You think I enjoy the way I’m living right now? I don’t! I don’t enjoy it at all and things needs to change, things need to change. Things. Need. To …. Change. So, I’m wishing for this and there’s nothing you can do about it. I’m not changing my mind. I am tired. Oh I’m so tired. (looks up) (talking to the sky now)
You hear me? I’m tired! When are things going to change?! When are things going to change…. Do you know because if you do I would really like to know. I can't go on like this. Please make my wish come true just PLEASE. Make my wish come true because I’ve had enough oh I’ve had enough and I need things to change. MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE. Do you understand now? Can you hear me?

I enjoyed performing my monologue. It was no secret that I was very nervous. There was a lot of things I tried to work on before my final performance. One thing was I had to try and fix was my swaying. When I get nervous, I sway back and forth and up and down. It's a bad habit of mine. In the performance I tried to not sway as much….. I sort of did a good job. I think I get a 45/100 on how well I did on not swaying. I'm going to keep working on this though. I think people will take what I have to so more seriously if I stand strong, and tall, and confident. Another thing I had to work on was how fast I said my words, how fast I would speak. When I started speaking in my final performance, I was talking very quickly. As I was speaking, I noticed everyone's faces sort of shocked. Almost saying,”Whoah, you need to slow down and take a breather”. I noted that and slowed down talking. It actually allowed me to be less nervous. It allowed me to breath more. This is something I have to keep in mind when I have other performances. I'm really proud of myself. I was super nervous to start off with regarding if I'd remember my lines. I remembered them! I was super nervous about how I would act regarding my motions. I did well on that too! Sure it was awkward at times but I think I worked the stage pretty well if I do say so myself! I'm super happy and I hope I keep improving. I feel more confident already, even in my everyday life. Now I know that I made the right decision joining this class. Thanks!